Each year I face the dreaded anniversary of a traumatic five-minute long event — an armed robbery, which has affected nearly every area of my life. As with many people, seasonal changes, which I call seasonal triggers, bring on a flood of memories of that event. In my case, the seasonal triggers are shortened days and colder, cloudier weather.
It could happen again
For several weeks each year, I feel like I am practically re-living the trauma. When the colder, cloudier weather comes, and I find myself walking alone in mall parking lots, restaurant parking lots, or any parking lot, I am usually thinking to myself, “It could happen to me again, right here, now.”
Warm and cozy
During the cold months of the year, I spend a lot of time resting at home in an effort to calm my anxious soul. I’m not working off many pounds, but I have many hours to practice my deep breathing techniques, and slowly page through home decorating magazines while drinking hot cocoa. As bedtime approaches, I prepare for sleeping by feeding myself a steady diet of peaceful thoughts, comedies or magazines, and keep my distance from scary or violent movies and news shows. I am a flowering plant that takes great care to nurse back to health after a strong storm. The dream – of health – comes through much effort.
Hold on to your hats. I am flowering.
I have changed in the three years since the armed robbery. I enjoy summers more than ever before, because I can spend time with my friends under the sun, soaking up the rays, being generally carefree about life. My love for fresh fruit, well-tended gardens, and building friendships has increased. Throughout the year, I surround myself with plenty of lights or sunshine, eat foods that are good for me, and nurture my sense of humor.
I am developing a greater ability to be content in any circumstance. Whether I am at home or at work, I often find myself stopping what I am doing to enjoy the profoundly simple pleasure of being in a safe place with a roof over my head. I need practically nothing else.
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This article was written by: Deborah PerryPhoto Credit: Ethan Sykes